#Day 25 to 30

Hey minna!!!

So I've been exhausted with practice and school and well I'm back at the gym since yesterday!!!

I'm not even gonna bother in doing all the logs, I don't even remember half of it to be honest... But I do have some words to say, I really didn't expected to be able to complete this challenge, but I did, and it feels so amazing! It's like this HUGE sense of accomplishment, like I actually did something  never thought I would do and with my own willpower, I worked to get something and I actually got it, I feel great! (ant tired honestly school+gym is exhausting)

Well I'll leave it at that for now, see yah later!

Nana

#Day 23, 24 and 25

Hey minna!

So I haven't stoped in days! I've been walking a lot which is a good complement to my exercise, but doesn't leave me much time to my actual scheduled exercise... :\

Well here are the logs for the last few days!

Day 23:

- Popcorn.

Day 24:

- Two cereal bars;
- Two icecreams (my friend that monitores me allowed it uwu).

Day 25:

- Two cereal bars;
- Some chocolate almonds.

Well this is all for now see yah later!

Nana

#Day 22

Hey minna!

So yesterday I exercised REALLY late and just did the usual, nothing more to tell, it was a really crappy day in more than one way, so I'll just pass on to the food log:

- Two cheese&ham toasts;
- Two home made hot-dogs;
- One and a half pork sandwish.

Yeah not healthy at all, but there wasn't many alternatives here at home... I really need to make up for it these last vacation days!

Well see yah later!

Nana

#Day 20 and 21

Hey minna!

So Monday was a very special day, I broke my sit-ups record and did 300 of them! Yeah that's a lot, at least for me, of course I took breaks and all but I really feel accomplished!

Well there is nothing much to say besides this, so let's pass on to the food logs.

Day 20:

- One pork sandwish, like with a grilled steak and a little mustard... That's a thing here in Portugal...

Day 21:

- Four toasts;
- Two slices of chocolate cake.

Well this is all for now, see yah later!

Nana

#Day 17, 18 and 19

Hey minna!

Sorry for the sudden disappearence, but I've been pretty occupied with reccording, and my dad's birthday and a dinner party at a pizzaria, my schedule has been full!

Well I almost don't have to say that the exercise I did these days was very very little, although I'll try and compensate it all this week, working as hard as I can!

Here are the food logs...

Day 17:

- Pizza;
- Two slices of ice cream cake;
- Ham&cheese toast.

Day 18:

- One slice of carrot birthday cake;

Day 19:

- Pizza (at the restaurant, including chocolate pizza which is delicious!);

Well this is all for now, see you later!

Nana

Multicultural Songs!

Hey minna!

So lately I noticed that I've been listening to a lot of songs from different countries, like japanese (but that's normal already xD), english (ofc -.-), spanish, italian, korean, german and french! Yeah really strange, anyway I decided to share some of these songs with you so that you can also expand your musical culture and stuff...

Japanese:

This song for a change is not Vocaloid (although there is a vocaloid cover) nor from an anime, just purely japanese, it has japanese instruments also and they go very well with the guitar and drums, enjoy really!

English:

Well most of the songs I listen to are english, I'm going to share the ones I've been listening more often...

(from the trailer for the tv show "Ressurection", at least in Portugal)

(from the sound track of Teen Wolf)

Spanish:

(I have to thank my Spanish teacher to remember me I love this song xD)

Italian:

The loves of my childhood first...

And now the songs I've discovered recently (also old).

(and many by him)

Korean:

(For them I have to give credits to my friend Sakura, she taught me everything I know about korean songs!)

German:

(Yes I know what the songs mean, but my parents don't xD)

French:

Well this is all for now, I REALLY hope you like the musics, and that you'll be able to expand your horizonts!

See yah later!

Nana

#Day 16

Hey minna!!!

So today for a change I'm going to do a movie review!!! Yeey! Like I just saw this movie called “Adult World” and I have SO many thoughts on it that I really wanna share with someone, and since I’ve been doing such short posts I might as well include the movie review here!!!

Here is a link to the movie page on IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1067765/

“Amy, a naïve college graduate who believes she's destined to be a great poet, begrudgingly accepts a job at a sex shop while she pursues a mentorship with reclusive writer Rat Billings.”

Well this is the short description. The movie immediately caught my eye with the words “poet” and “Evan Peters” (part of the main cast, and one of my eternal loves) but throughout the movie I started to identify myself SO MUCH with Amy, the way she loved writing and the way it was her whole world, made me think of me a few years ago, and the me I was starting to become again…

Before I continue I want to share something else with you, I want to be a writer, and about two years ago I let go of my life, I was so numb to everything, but a friend of mine started writing with me and I held on to that so much that I couldn’t see reality, I simply couldn’t detach myself from that, and I ended up worse than I was when I began… 
Well a lot of shit happened after that, much heartache, many happy moments, and looking back I think it was worth it, because it made me who I am today, and made me want to fight to achieve my dreams! 

Okay back to the movie, the character was also very immersed in herself, but in the end (as 99% of the times) she pulled through it, and got her life back on tracks.
I loved all the colors, all the different places and different personalities of the movie, it made wish that I worked on a sex shop, had a transvestite friend and ran away from home to live with my pothead/activist friend xD. I’m tired of my normal and boring life, I want to see new places, meet new people, do new things, there is so much of me that is eager to get out and observe, learn, write, but somehow, I can’t I just keep repressing it, and writing is my way of exploring new things, explore the impossible, taking it away it’s taking away my soul…

Well that’s all the cheesy stuff for now, let pass on to the food log, since the exercise today was pretty standard:
-One bowl of fitness cereal.

That’s all for today, see ya tomorrow!

Nana

#Day 15

Hey minna!

Okay I'm starting to repeat myself a lot during this posts, but on the bright side: I'm halfway there!!! Yeey! So I was very busy yesterday seeing new animes and tv shows, and I'm back on my studies of the japanese language and culture, which is very good to keep me distracted, but in a way learning!

Well here is yesterday's food log:

- Two pieces of toast;
- Two bowls of fitness cereal.

Well see ya later!

Nana

#Day 14

Hey minna! 

So yesterday was pretty much a normal day I did my exercise and I ate moderatly right, I think exercising is paying off, at least I really want to believe that, that what I'm doing isn't for nothing!

Well here is yesterday's food log:

- One ham toast;
- One yogurt;
- One bowl of fitness cereal.

 That is all for now, see ya later!

Nana

#Day 13

Hey minna!!!

So I've spent all day away at a friends house, I really need to get my shit together and start organizing things, I know this was the first day of vacation but there's so many things to do I feel I'll be overloaded for months O.O

So I'll do my exercise now, so let's jump into today's log:

- 4 pieces of toast.

Yeah literally this is it, see you tomorrow guys!

Nana

#Day 11 and 12

Hey minna!

Sorry for not writting anything yesterday, but as always weekends are completly fucked p to me, tomorrow is tha first day of vacations I'll try to sort some things out on the afternoon when I arrive from my friend's house!

Well, I don't know where the thingy I use for measurements is, so I will postpone the measurement until I find it!

Now the logs:

Yesterday:

- Cheese&ham toast;
- A piece of bread at lunch;
- One liquid yogurt;
- Rice crackers.

Today:

- Rice crackers;
- One liquid yogurt;
- Cheese&ham toast;
- One slice of cake;
- Three jelly gums.

About exercise, I didn't do much but tomorrow I intend to compensate big time, and well I guess that's all for today! See you tomorrow!

Nana

#Day 10

Hey minna!

So I'm back, and today I really compensated for the little exercise of yesterday, but good news: I'M ON VACATION!!! PARTY HARD!!! 

From now on I'll try waking up early to do exercise, and perhaps some days I'll do in the morning and again on the afternoon, basically I want to do a lot, not just exercise, but I have a lot of tv shows/animes to see and a lot of books/mangas to read, I know most of the time I'll spend on Youtube seeing nothing special, but I really have to change that, and also perhaps do some studying since I'm going to have exams this year and my notes are all messed up!

Well for today's log (I didn't had dinner yet, so I may edit this later):

- One croissant with cheese&ham (there was NO bread at school, really!);
- Two cereal bars;
- Salt&Water crackers.

That's all for today, see you tomorrow!

Nana

P.S: I said I was going to measure myself today, but I'll do it tomorrow morning because I ate so the measurement wouldn't be accurate.

#Day 9

Hey minna!

So yesterday I was just dead and didn't wrote anything, sorry about that, I did little exercise, but I certainly compensated today, but I'll get on that later...

So yesterday's food log:

- One thin slice of cake (I didn't had anything to eat at breakfast);
- Pizza at dinner (I ate just the necessary slices and I really had nothing else my rfridge is really empty);
- One toast.

Well that's all for now, see you later!

Nana

Selfless Love vs. Selfish Love

So… There this really cute exchange student at my school and two days ago he smiled at me while greeting one of his friends that was with me (another exchange student), well, no one EVER smiled at me that way, and being hopelessly romantic (and hopelessly desperate for affection) I started to fall for him, like in 48h hours I became completely obsessed over him, and my friends all just got really excited, because it’s the first time I felt this way towards someone real, that really could be with me, and it was so strange, they all kept saying that he was looking at me at breaks and I caught him looking my way once or twice, so this whole romance story just began to grow in my head, and it was driving me crazy, like all the love songs make sense now, and my heart will explode, it was the most… HORRIBLE FEELING EVER!!! Jesus I know I’m like super romantic and rainbows, butterflies and shit but OMG this was too much even for me!

When I got home I was still a bit like this, but in the shower it’s like all the love washed away and I began thinking properly… I don’t know ANYTHING about this guy, not even his fucking name! How can I be supposedly so madly “in love” with someone if I never heard them talk in the first place? ‘Well maybe I’m in love with his looks’ I thought, but am I such a superficial person? No that wasn’t it, but then I remembered, the smile, I was in love with his smile, with that little display of affection that I may have completely misunderstood kept me in this dreamy state for two whole days, I mean I have like zero self esteem, the fact that someone could show such a perfect smile just to me was just too overwhelming, because it goes against my every belief, so I didn’t fall for him, probably if he hadn’t smiled I wouldn’t even remember him, but that smile and all the looks after that just kept feeding feeling that weren’t really there in the first place…

So to conclude, what I was feeling was just a selfish love, in fact I can’t even call that love, let’s say infatuation, it was a selfish infatuation instead of the real thing, I saw what I wanted to see, and I was idealizing a whole person that doesn’t really exist, and that’s really selfish of me to use him for that, and it’s not healthy at all!

So that’s all for now, see you guys later!

Kisses,

Nana

#Day 8

Hey minna!

So today I did the same exercise as yesterday, I just increased it a tiny bit, just to see if I could, since I wasn't in so much pain or anything... The day went pretty smoothly since it's the last days of school it's pretty much just watching movies, see speeches about the most diverse matters, and watching the lazy guys in my class present wokrs I already did one or two weeks ago, so yeah life it's pretty good right now... Still it's boring staying at school just for these things when I could be watching TV Shows and shit like that *couch potato mode*...

Well for todays food log:

- 3 cookies in the afternoon (it was that or a toast, soo... And the cookies didn't have chocolat or anything we call them "Maria" cookies, they are pretty healthy in small amounts;
- 1L of water.

Well that's all for today!

Nana

Weird Feelings

“I hate the feeling I get after making up with someone after a fight, like, I know things are never the same, especially if both parties were deeply hurt, but when we make up I still always feel like a big hole lies between us, dividing us, and I always want to cross it, not fill it up completely and pretend that never existed, but just build a bridge and cross it, reach to the other person and hug her, never letting go… But at the beginning my bridge feels so unsafe, like a breeze of air is going to break it, and I’m going to fall into the pit and be buried along with our friendship, and this thought scares me SO much that I end up messing up more, I hate being this insecure, and all I want is to be a good friend, and to make up for my mistakes, and in so many occasions I feel like I’ve failed, and I just start feeling like a horrible person, but I end up being forgiven and it’s like the happiest feeling I ever got, getting another chance to make up for what happened, it may be stupid, but I get happy that easily!”

- Nana Beluzzi (me)

Well minna, here is one more text, but I wanted to add one thing, most of the texts I put here, and many other may be found on my Tumblr page dedicated to this stuff: Fucking Life and many more things about my tastes may be found here on my main Tumblr: Things

That is all for now, my post for today is coming right next so stay on!

Nana

Portuguese Rock/Metal

Hey minna!!!

So, as you know I went to a concert on Saturday, well, it was the final of the contest for Garage Bands from Setúbal (the city I live) there were pretty good bands, and we even got to see the guest players, Hills Have Eyes! (also from Setúbal)

So I'll share with you the music of the winner band, and of Hills Have Eyes, I really liked them!

Stone Dead (the winners):

Hills Have Eyes:

Seriously, check them out, they're awesome!!!

So that's all for today, see you later!

Nana

#Day 7

Hey minna!

So today I met a German girl! Yeah that's right, an actual girl from Germany! She's in an exchange program and she went to a class of mine, and we started talking and shit, it was really fun, just communicating in english! I've leaned all kinds of new stuff about Germany, and she learned quite a bit about Portugal too, I hope she'll talk to me more, because I love learning about other countries!

Well today I exercised almost double than I'm used to, I'm sure tomorrow this will have repercurssions, but completly worth it, just have to keep motivated and move foward!

Today's food log:

- Two mixed toast made of integral/cereal bread;
- 1L of water.

Well here it is! I'm really decreasing my bad habbits and evolving to a healthier state! I even had to check my list twice to see if I really just had eaten these toasts, with healthy bread for the matter!

Well let's hope I can keep on going like this from now onwards, with Easter vacation aproaching let's hope so!

See you next time,

Nana

#Day 6

Hey minna!

So yesterday I exercised pretty late so I ended up just going to sleep instead of writting, but here it is the log:

- A mixed toast with seeds bread (don't know if that makes any sense);
- A mixed toast;
- A tuna sandwish (at lunch);
- 3 cookies, with low calories;
- I drank like 1L of water, maybe a little bit more... 

Well here it is, look foward to more!

Nana