Week Fifteen, Day 3: Body Pump

Hey minna!

So yesterday I went to a Body Pump lesson, it was soo hard! But it was awesome!!! i am completly worn out today, but it was completly work it! I want to keep going and I want to get better, and be able to do everything correctly!

Here is a video with some of the exercises we make:

As you can see you can change the weight in the bar, so it's possible to progress in class, and get better, and more toned, which is great!

Well I'm going!

Kisses,

Nana

Week Fifteen, Day 2: Zumba, Never Again

Hey minna!

So today I went to a zumba class to keep a friend and... NEVER AGAIN!!! That was torture! I really hated it, maybe there was one or two things that were kind of fun, but we were basicly twerking or some shit, and we almost didn't exercise! I got out of there as I came in: not tired at all! 

So it was  really a disappointment, I don't mind going once or twice to keep my friend company, but I won't do of that a regular thing for sure!!!

Sorry but I really have to go now!

Kisses,

Nana!

Week Fifteen, Day 1: No Title

Hey minna!

So I don't really have a title for this, my day was pretty boring, but still, I was very tired so I went to sleep after dinner and didn't had time to write... Also I went Friday to the gym too, I couldn't catch the Zumba class but I did my usual program of arms/abdominal anyways...

I went to the Body Combat class, with a different teacher though, the teacher's are different at Mondays and Wednesdays, personally I prefer the Wednesday more, but this one also pushes you to the limit, which is good.
I could've worked harder, but Mondays suck really, I was so tired from PE and I didn't really feel like it, still, I did everything! I also did 200 sit-ups after to compensate, I didn't do the chest press because my arms were already dead from the class. I guess this pretty sums everything up...

Well see you later!

Kisses, 
Nana

Week Fourteen, Day 3: Having Fun!

Hey minna!

So today I had lot's of fun at the gym! I was really tired because of the Mile yesterday, so I decided to do my normal auto-program, sit ups, chest press, abductor and adductor, but everything is more fun with friends and I had my friend Gonçalo and Suu there with me!

We laughed a lot, never stopped, but improvised a lot to be able to talk while exercising! It's just the motivator I needed to go to the gym, get my fat ass off the computer chair and DO something!

And it's working! I lost 1Kg! I now weight 83Kg and I'm really happy!!! Only 13Kg to go! It may seem much but I'm sure I can make it, and I even may reach my goal body before that, because everyone apparently is noticing many changes on my body, and I'm noticing one or two yes, so I might be closer than I expect!

Well that's all for today, see you tomorrow!

Nana

Week Fourteen Day 2: Being Sick is a Bitch!

Hey minna!

So yeah, I'm sick, kind of, it's weird to explain... Summing it up I went to Body Combat as always and it was really difficult to even stand there, my whole body was sour (I ran the mile on PE, so yeah i was exhausted) and despite me doing everything, it was SUPER tiring!

Oh yeah the mile is an exercise we do at school every few months, it consists in running a mile (1600m more or less) as fast as possible! The maximum to girls is 10 minutes, well I did 11 minutes and 30 seconds, which was GOOD, normally I did like 13 minutes or so... So yeah, I improved!

I'll cut it short, going to bed with some hot milk and stuff, see ya tomorrow!

Nana

Week Fourteen, Day 1: Take a Walk

Hey minna!

So I'm here just to make a small sum up about the hell that was yesterday.

Yesterday I was feeling really sick, I ate too much at lunch, or I ate something bad I don't know, and that made me puke all the lunch at school, even after some tea I was feeling too weak and sick to go to the gym, so two of my friends: Suu and Ana Isabel, took me for a walk!

We walked little because it was reallyyy cold and it was night already, but the fresh air was nice, and helped me forget about the awful day I had!

So if you're ever feeling too sick to go to the gym, don't give up, just try to find other ways to work out, even if it is just a little.

I'll leave it here for now, kisses

Nana

Week Thirteen Day Two: Fucked Up Feelings

Hey minna!

Sorry I didn’t write anything yesterday, but I was just too tired to do any of that.

I went to a 3B lesson with my friend Suu, it was very intense, my arms are dead! (and it’s a class to work the legs! xD)

But that’s not what I’m here to talk about. I’m here to talk about a really fucked up feeling called loneliness. I’ve been feeling SO lonely lately, even if all my friends are single too, even if I’m being stupid, and selfish, and thinking more of me than what I should, it’s what I feel at the bottom of my heart.

I want to hold someone in my arms, I want to be hugged, to be kissed, I want someone to whisper sweet words on my ear, even just a pat in the head would be fine. When my friends hug me I feel so secure and happy, I want to feel that all the time with my loved one!

But… How can I love and be loved hating me so much? I despise me, I look at the mirror and I see a stranger, an ugly, more, a disgusting body, and I want to rip it apart, bit by bit with my nails, see what’s underneath, see the real me, the me that I will love, the that will be loved!

How can a person who thinks that of herself love others? How can she be loved by someone? I never truly loved someone, hell, not even a real crush, in sixteen years of existence for fuck’s sake!!! And NO ONE EVER had a crush on me, or something like that, I just know it for sure! Well, who would, I’m a freaking freak of nature, tall as a tower, fat as a pig, I’m hateful, even my personality is overly childish, which in me is just gross. Boys and girls want someone cute and small to cuddle with, not a fat tower!

I always hear stuff like:” There are people with every kind of taste” or “Don’t be a pussy, you’re still young” blah, blah, blah!

I need someone now! I need someone to ease the pain, no, the emptiness, the hole, the numbness inside my chest.

In the end I’m just a coward little girl who is afraid of dealing with life and getting out of her comfort zone and DO something useful!

I’ll end your pain here, see ya next week.

Nana

Week Thirteen, Day 1

Hey minna!

So today I went to one more Body Combat class, and it was A W E S O M E !

The teacher is really cool, and plays a lot, besides he doesn't play brazillian music, but good old rock n' roll, and I LOVE it! I'll try to ask for the playlist to post it here, since it's almost always the same scheme, he just plays around a little, so we won't get bored, still, the classes are very alike, and I like it that way, I can see if I progress, instead of always changing everything.

This class really improved my mood, I feel a lot better since yesterday, and I'm ready to kick some ass!

See ya tomorrow, kisses,

Nana!

Feelings and Shit

Hey!

So... Not sure how to start this message... So I'm just going to write it all at once!

I'm here to talk about feelings, and one, or two years ago, I had lots of them. I used to be a cry baby, I cried in the sad ending of the movie, on the happy ending of a movie, when I was sad, even when my friends were sad I would cry for them, so yeah basicly I was stupid, and I had serious dehidration problems from all the crying. xD

But, thanks to my friends, I became stronger, I was able to grow up a bit, thanks to them, and don't mistake me, I love them and I am so grateful for what they've done, but at the same time I think I broke myself...

I still cry sometimes, generally when I really don't want to, but when I was "supposed" to cry I don't, and that just leaves a hole inside my chest, waiting to be reliefed, butcause that is what tears are, a reliefer, they relief the pressure inside me, even if at the time is ugly, the next day I feel refreshed, ready to let the past be in the past, but now... Now I just mope around for days with what feels like motion sickness until miraculasly it's healed.

Not when I'm with them though. I was always very dependant of people, but his is getting ridiculous, I can't have that they're mere presence decide if my day is good or bad, decide if I'm going somewhere or not, I seriously need to grow up and learn to be happy on my own, because, if not, I'll completly fall apart if they leave me...

Kisses,

Nana

Week Tweve Day 1 and 2: Ima back!

So... Hey!

Sorry for the long abcense, I was really fucking fed up this last few weeks, so I didn0't even wrote the two days I went on week ten, but oh well...

I solved everything and yesterday I got back to the gym!

Currently i'm just taking the classes and doing some abdominal work, I want to stregthen my body, make him more "loose" and agile, so I think working in my own pace won't do... The classes on the other hand keep me motivated and make me move at a more normal pace, and so, besides building strengh and losing calories I'm having fun learning about coordination, something I NEVER had, so yeah I'm going to bet on this for now and see how it goes!

See ya later!

Nana