Feelings and Shit

Hey!

So... Not sure how to start this message... So I'm just going to write it all at once!

I'm here to talk about feelings, and one, or two years ago, I had lots of them. I used to be a cry baby, I cried in the sad ending of the movie, on the happy ending of a movie, when I was sad, even when my friends were sad I would cry for them, so yeah basicly I was stupid, and I had serious dehidration problems from all the crying. xD

But, thanks to my friends, I became stronger, I was able to grow up a bit, thanks to them, and don't mistake me, I love them and I am so grateful for what they've done, but at the same time I think I broke myself...

I still cry sometimes, generally when I really don't want to, but when I was "supposed" to cry I don't, and that just leaves a hole inside my chest, waiting to be reliefed, butcause that is what tears are, a reliefer, they relief the pressure inside me, even if at the time is ugly, the next day I feel refreshed, ready to let the past be in the past, but now... Now I just mope around for days with what feels like motion sickness until miraculasly it's healed.

Not when I'm with them though. I was always very dependant of people, but his is getting ridiculous, I can't have that they're mere presence decide if my day is good or bad, decide if I'm going somewhere or not, I seriously need to grow up and learn to be happy on my own, because, if not, I'll completly fall apart if they leave me...

Kisses,

Nana