Week Six Day 4: Exhaustion

Hey minna!

Sorry for not posting yesterday but I was really tired, so I decided to rest the rest of the day and do the post today.

Well the gym went relatively well, music really helps through the boredom of it all, and the tips I received from the director also helped and made the exercises easier, well some of them, it made others twice as hard, or even impossible to my current state (I don't like to use that word here, it's so negative, but in this case it really is necessary).

Despite all of that it was a positive day, I already can see improvement and I hope the next weeks keep going like this.

So I'll keep it short and see ya next time!

Nana

Week Six Day 3: Can I Escape My Nature?

Hey minna!

So I've been wondering, can human beings radically change? Like on the outside and on the inside?
Everyone changes, that's a fact, I for example have changed a lot compared with two years ago and I plan on changing more, on the outside with the gym and on the inside too, but this is a slow change, I keep being the same person deep down because I have no imediate need to change, no imediate need to get out of my comfort zone so even if I don't like something I'll probably bitch about it than actually change it (a huge bad side of me). I don't know about you guys, but I think a lot of people is like this, in my opinion at least.

So I was at the gym today and I was wondering: "Can I really keep up with this, like, can I really change into someone I will like?" and I kind of mentally slapped myself, chasing away these thought, because even if I hance phisically and even a little mentally I'll always be truthfull to who I am, I promissed myself that in the beginning and I intend to fulfill that promise.

My answer is, no, you can't escape your nature, because you don't need to, you only have to be truthfull to yourself! (unless you are a rapist or a murderer, in that case please change, turn into someone better)

So this is all for today, see ya tomorrow!

Nana

Week Six Day 2: What Lies Beyond the Grave?

Hey minna,

I salute you from beyond the graveee... Okay not literally, but yeah I'm pretty beaten... Literally I've been laughing at my previous posts, comparing the difficulty then with the difficulty today, and despite not being such a BIG difference it's rough anyway...

Today was my cardio day, I have chosen this day because I go straight from PE to the gym, and supposedly this day shkud be easier (it isn't) so I'll do the cardio exercises (30 minutes on the step machine and 30 minutes on the elliptical) every Wednsday.

I really don't know what else to say, and I'm so sleepy I'm not even thinking straight right now... So I guess I'll sleep and see if tomorrow I'm better, I really hope so though, so see ya!

Nana

Week Six Day 1: What Lies Beyond the Rainbow?

Hey minna!

So, I started my new program today... Sincerly I didn't know what to expect but I created many hopes like how great it would be, and it really is, it's really tiring, but it will be completly worth it in a few weeks! 

I was kind of stressed, like, they weren't playing any music, and I was alone, so I was kind of lost at the beginning, but I focused on what I had to do, I did it the best way I could and got the hell out of there! 

I'm beated so I'll keep this on short, see you tomorrow!

Nana

One Month!

Hey minna!

So today it's a very special day, it's beem ONE MONTH since I've started this journey. Little I know, but it'smore time than I ever dedicated to something besides writting or watching tv shows and anime. 

It's been a troubled journey, with ups and downs, and it's only at the very beginning, literally I didn't lose any weight, despite being stronger, I'm gaining muscle and losing fat, Rome wasn't built in a day but it was a great empire, and I want that, I want to be great, look great, for myself, for my health, but only hard work will do that.

I'm currently with 85Kg, give or take a few grams, after my sloppiness in Vindimas I worked twice as hard to regain at least my original weight and I hope, soon to start losing more and more.

Well, how was this fantastic (not) day? School was the same as always, not even going to bother you with that, but the important thing is the gym part.
Today I went to an evaluation to measure my fat, I don't exacly know the results, but I know I'm getting a more detailed program (yeah keeps getting harder) to gain muscle in specific places, and help tone these areas more that the others. I just did 20 minutes on bike after that, so I didn't count today as a part of my journal, but  tomorrow with my new program I'll try a lot harder.

So that's all for today, see ya next time!

Nana

Going with the Flow

Hey minna,

So this is my third day of school and no I don't have gym today, but I am not tired so I might as well have, these days have been tiring don't mistake me but I'm just feeling so numb, just going with the flow, go to class, go to recess, comeback to class...
It's just an endless loop of boredom that has been bugging me, or better, I've been tormenting myself for not being capable of changing this, of being stuck in this. I really hope things start moving, that something or someone changes me, because I can't take it, it's really flusterating, not having control over yourself, and I'm tired! (Yes in the third day of school)

So now, I wanted to talk about my first real gym class, that basicly screwd up my day and my self-esteem. First of all we did gymnastics, which I hate a lot, things started to go wrong since the warm up until the end, I was just so flustrated for not being able to do the exercises like everyone else, that's already the usual to me, but still, after a month at the gym I expected more, so take that hopes and dreams!

On another almost unrelated theme, my class. Okay I didn't expect to everyone to greet m with hugs or anything but I wished that they would I don't know, help me? Maybe I'm asking for to much to someone like me, the weirdo and all, but I was literally in a corner, almost panicking, flustrated with my body and what I couldn't do, and not a single one of them noticed, or worse, they noticed but just laughed at m face with they're friends and kept moving, I wish sometimes for a better class, a class that would help me, orat least someone there that would give me a shouder to cry now and then...

So this is the emotional post form the week I promise, no more, thank you for reading, see ya next time!

Nana

Motivational Images 2

Hey minna, 

I've been collecting A LOT of images lately, and I wanted to share some more with you guys, they're always helpful, I've printed a bunched and I read them in my wall everyday when I wake up!

Well this is all for now, hope you enjoyed them!

Nana

Music

Hey minna!

So after a lot of thought I decided to do a post about the musics I listen to at the gym (or inteded to listen since my mp3 is nowhere to be found.

Hatsune Miku - Egoselfish (English cover)

Hatsune Miku - The Game of Life (English cover)

Hatsune Miku - Kagerou Days (English cover)

Rin and Len Kagamine - The Wolf Who Fell in Love with the Red Riding Hood (English cover)

Hatsune Miku - Rolling Girl (English Cover)

Hatsune Miku and Rin Kagamine - A Female Ninja, But I Want to Love! (English cover)

IA - A Tale of Six Trillion Years and a Night

IA - Yuukei Yesterday (English cover)

IA - Otsukimi Recital (English cover)

IA - Yobanashi Deceive (English cover)

IA - Lost Time Memory (English cover)

Okay I intended to make this a 10 video thing but I got enthusiastic! Explaining: these musics belong to the Vocaloids, they are Japanese voice programs, I really love them! I posted the english covers for most of the musics because I understand that maybe some of you don't like japanese, and I really don't want you to miss these beautiful musics!

Week Five, Day 1: Better than Expected

Hey minna!

So today as you know form my previous post, was my first day of school, surprisingly it went reasonably well, I mean it was presentations all over again, so I didn't do anything particularly exhausting, so I better prepare myself to what will come, because the hell is dressing up as heaven but thursday I'll be dying for sure!

Well good points of the day; I raised the parade in my only two muscle training machimes the abductor and the adductor. I raised the first from 45Kg to 50Kg, and the secont from 25Kg to 30Kg. It was a good accomplishment to motivate me into giving my all in the other machines.

And as always, the brighter the light, darker the shadow, the down points of today were mainly the time. Today the gym was SUPER full, people almost had to line up to the machines and that's delayed my program a lot, so I had to do the last exercises in a hury, I dd them well but I was really tired after, so tomorrow I won't be able to move!

The worst part about my new schedule is that I go there on the busiest hour, so It'll take a hella lot of time to get things done, apart from that it's the usual for now.

So it's all for today, see ya tomorrow!

Nana

Back to School

Hey minna!

So I'm back from my last weekend of freedom, I went to an anime convention here in my town and it was really fun! I tried to be cute and weared a dress, well didn't go SO well but it wasn't very bad...

Today unfotunally was my first school day ONLY 14 WEEKS TO CHRISTMAS VACATION yeah so as you may see I'm really excited! Except I'm not -.-

No but now talking seriously it wasn't very bad, I met my three new classmates who actually are pretty cool (two of them) and I gotout pretty early so I could spend more time with my friends who are in different classes than me. Today is gym day though and tomorrow I won't wake up probably because I have classes everyday at 8AM!!! It's really awful, to wake up at 7am and go zombie-like to the bathroom to take a bath.

The only positive thing is that I have three afternoons free so I can study, go to the sgym see anime and my beloved series, read... You name it... I'll be very occupied though, but I'll try to postas much as I can! 

Week Four Day 4 and 5: I'm Beaten

Hey minna!

Well one more week is over, it was a really hard one, I never expected to be so difficult, but I'm coping, the truth is I've never been this tired in the gym before, all the things people told me were lies, like "the first week is hard, and then it's easy!" FUCK. NO. It wasn't it keeps getting harder along the way, like a roller coster, full of ups and downs, but oh well, I SURVIVED!

Only two days left before school starts, I'm gonna try making extra posts on weekends and program them to each day of the week in case I'm too busy to post something besides my journal (or even my journal itself) my schedule is mainly in the morning, I have two days of afternoon class though, these two days I won't be going to the gym but in addition to the week I'll start doing Saturdays as well, so I'll go a total of 4 times per week which is good.

I have exams this year so I'll have to study harder since the very beginning, last year I was really lazy, so my grades were bad, I have to make it up, but both thing are important to me, both will be a part of the future me so I'm trying really hard to balance the two of them.

Well enough emotional stuff for today, see ya next time!

Nana

Week Three: Measurement

Hey minna!

So I bring to you again my measurements, well they're kind of last weeks measurements that I hadn't time to post before, so in two weeks or so I'll post new ones.

Before I give you this disaster, take note that I measured 2h after lunch and right after I came back from Vindimas, so the results were dissapointing to say the least.

Yeah so no big differences here, but in numbers there were slight changes, I always give or take one centimeter just to be sure.

Arms - 35,7cm

Chest - 96,5cm

Waist - 89cm

Hips - 103cm

Thigh - 63,5cm

Current Weight: 86.5Kg

This may just b an excuse, but at the gym I'm also building up muscle, which weights more than fat, so it may be one of the reasons for being losing weight so slowly, or at least I hope.

Well I won't let this bring me down and I'll just keep on fighting until I reach what I'set for myself. 

See ya!

Nana

Week Four Day 2 and 3: You Have to be F*cking with Me

Hey minna!

I was really tired yesterday and had no patience to write, and since the topic I bring you today could be merged with the one from yesterday I decided to merge them into one.

Yesterday I started a new program, yes, right the day after I did that post about the previous program, that really got on my nerve, but at the same time I was really excited!

Now I kind of have 2 programs to do alternatly, one works my muscles and the other is mainly cardio and sit ups. Personally I hate both, they get me really tired, and besides the cardio ones, I barely do any machines (I'll do another post with my new program once I find out the names of the exercises).

I am really exhausted and it's only day two with this program, but it's a good thing I'm tired, it means it's working, I really hope next week I'm already used to it because of school and all, I want to fit everything up, and go as many days as I can so I can see results as soon as possible!

Well going to rest today, see ya tomorrow!

Nana

Motivational Image

Hey,

I've broug to you one more motivational image from my personal collection, as I said, today was really hard, and my muscles were really sour, and in need of a little motivation I remembered this simple phrase, just four words but a lot of meaning in them!

My Program Goals

Hey minna!

Today I'm here to talk about my goal. Again.

Don't think wrong my goal hasn't change, I simply set new goals in different things, for example: in my program.

Until now I didn't knew exacly how to tell you my program, because I didn't knew how to translate the machines into english, well now I know most of them and I want to tell you which one's they are and what I want to accomplish in each.

Well let's start in the order in which I usually do them (I also do some mattress exercises but I really don't know the name of those, if I find out I'll do a post about them):

1. Bike

Time I do now: 15 minutes, velocity between 50-60Km/h, program 2.

Goal time: 20 minutes, velocity between 60-70, program 4/5.


2. Chest Press

Sets I do now: 4 sets of 15 each, 10Kg, medium difficulty.

Goal sets: 4 sets, 15 each, 40Kg, difficult.


3. Leg Press

Sets I do now: 4 sets of 15, 30/40Kg

Goal sets: 4 sets of 15, 60Kg


4. Treadmill

Time I do now: 20 minutes, velocity 6.0/6.5

Goal time: 30 minutes, velocity 8.0/10.0 (doesn't seems much, but it's the difference between walking and running)



5. Low Row

Sets I do now: 4 sets of 15, 25Kg

Goal sets: 4 sets of 15, 40Kg


6. Adduction (close)

Sets I do now: 3 sets of 15, 30Kg (this one is really difficult for me because of my hips problem)

Goal sets: 4 sets of 15, 60Kg


7. Abduction (open)

Sets I do now: 3 sets of 15, 45Kg

Goal sets: 4 sets of 15, 65Kg


8. Elliptical Bike

Time I do now: 12 minutes, program 2

Goal time: 20 minutes, program 3


Well this is my program (most of it) and my goals, hope you liked it, I'm going to try and make this a weekly thing to mark my progress in the machines, besides next week my program is going to change so... See ya next time!

Nana

Week Four Day 1: I Think I Might be Garfield

Hey minna!

Sorry I didn't post anything for a few days, I'm soooo lazy, Saturday I supposedly was going to the gym to workout, but in the morning I was feeling really bad, my muscles were really sour and I couldn't see, think or smell food without feeling sick.

WARNING: Never go to the gym without eating something sweet in the previous minutes/hours.

I made that mistake today and I almost collapsed in the treadmill with low blood sugar, since the start I was feeling really crappy but I thought:

"It's just because I really hate Mondays, my body is still 'asleep' from the weekend and it costs more!"

But then I began to feel really dizzy and my muscles started to hurt almost begging for something with sugar to keep working. I sat down for some minutes, I washed my face with fresh water and continued working out (I didn't had anything sweet nor money to buy something) more carefully, if I felt dizzy again I'd rest again and so on, so on.

Unfortunatly I didn't do as much as I wished given this small setback, but I still did everything, at my pace, and I didn't give up!

Still I hate Mondays, specially with school peeking right around the corner, next week I'm doing a kind of evaluation to remake my program, and adjust it to my school schedule, it'll be tough but I gotta keep improving more and more until I reach my goal!

It's all for now, see ya!

Nana

Week Three Day 2: Near a Cliff?

Hey minna!

Sorry for the late post, but I'm really exhausted, I woke up way worse than I predicted, and even getting out of bed and going to the gym, even in the afternoon, was a miracle! I was really surprised on how I managed to hold on, and doing everything with my maximum power, giving all I had, literally, because today the "all" wasn't as much as yesterday, still I am pretty proud of my body, and of what I could accomplish.

But it ain't all rainbows and butterflies my dear readers, Monday the instructor will make me a new program and he promissed me it would be pretty harsh! I was already ready for this... last week! 

This week is being really tiring, and I hope that on Sunday I can recover my energy to Monday give 100% again!

Well goig to get some sleep mates, see ya!

Nana

Week Three Day 1: I'm back!

Hey minna!

I know it's already Thursday, but I only got back yesterday morning and I was too lazy to get up the computer chair and go out. 

Today I want to the gym just in the afternoon, and I was disapointed but at the same time proud, what is very confusing even for me...
First of all in the bike exercise in the begiing I was so tired and I was really slow, what kind of bring me down, for a few seconds. I used the disappointment I was feeling and I turned it into motivation, giving my all in the other exercises which surprized me, because I didn't knew I could go that far, and I'm really looking foward tomorrow to try even harder and test my true limits, not the limits my mind imposed!

I started in two new machines today, and I finally know their names: "Abductor" and "Adductor" their very similar and they both work my legs, I guess I didn't tell you but I have a hip problem which makes difficult for me to do squats for example, and the instructors gave me special exercises to work on my problem and at the same time I gain muscle!

I'm not completly exhausted, like I can't even move (in the morning I might be though) but compared to the other days I'm much more tired! So tomorrow it's another day, I'll try even harder, school starts in 11 days, so I have to work double now, I'm even starting to go on Saturdays, taking advantage of the weekend and I hope to start seein results soon!

That's all for today, see ya tomorrow!

Nana

Absence

Hey minna!

Sorry I haven't post anything this past few days, the truth is I'm not home, I came to spend four days with my cousin due to "Vindimas".

Vindimas is a festival to honour the begining of the wine season, where the grapes are caught and used to ake the wonderful Palmela wine (Palmela it's the name of the village I'm in).

I have family here and every year I come here to party, buy things, eat and go to concerts. Of course the main thing in the last sentence is EAT. Yes this few days I have eaten more than I should, and my workout was equal to 0 (besides walking around until my feet bleed) I won't be surprised if I gain a Kg or two, I certainly hope not, or I will have to workout double tomorrow!

Back to my vacations, it was a lot of fun! I saw an Orchestra on the last day while the fireworks filled the sky with so many colours; blue, red, purple, green, white, orange... In the end it was so bright it was like it was daytime, the violins in the backgroud, and the loud noise of the fireworks blewing up, taking my mind of everything lse... it was truly beautiful, that kind of thing that makes you forget your name, that takes your speech, your breath away with the fear of the moment passing, it was one of those moments I wanted to freeze for my whole life! (okay maybe not my feet pain for standing for hours but you get the picture) 

Well I know this is not workout related, but I really wanted to share this with you guys, because it was a very good day!

Nana