Going with the Flow

Hey minna,

So this is my third day of school and no I don't have gym today, but I am not tired so I might as well have, these days have been tiring don't mistake me but I'm just feeling so numb, just going with the flow, go to class, go to recess, comeback to class...
It's just an endless loop of boredom that has been bugging me, or better, I've been tormenting myself for not being capable of changing this, of being stuck in this. I really hope things start moving, that something or someone changes me, because I can't take it, it's really flusterating, not having control over yourself, and I'm tired! (Yes in the third day of school)

So now, I wanted to talk about my first real gym class, that basicly screwd up my day and my self-esteem. First of all we did gymnastics, which I hate a lot, things started to go wrong since the warm up until the end, I was just so flustrated for not being able to do the exercises like everyone else, that's already the usual to me, but still, after a month at the gym I expected more, so take that hopes and dreams!

On another almost unrelated theme, my class. Okay I didn't expect to everyone to greet m with hugs or anything but I wished that they would I don't know, help me? Maybe I'm asking for to much to someone like me, the weirdo and all, but I was literally in a corner, almost panicking, flustrated with my body and what I couldn't do, and not a single one of them noticed, or worse, they noticed but just laughed at m face with they're friends and kept moving, I wish sometimes for a better class, a class that would help me, orat least someone there that would give me a shouder to cry now and then...

So this is the emotional post form the week I promise, no more, thank you for reading, see ya next time!

Nana